I have been thinking about my Mother all day and I was over come with grief. Maybe this is the first time since her death it has finally hit me that she is no longer here and never will be again. I still have the memory of her last hours and even though she didn't suffer but two days the memory of her gasping for her last breath and the complications of her illness I had to make decisions on. I want so much to feel her arms around me and welcome her kisses she used to fill my dimples with.
I had a break down today and cried like a baby as I held one of her favorite tops and looked at the picture of her taken Christmas 2007. It was the best picture of her I had seen in years. Even though she was blind from diabetes she looks as if she is looking right at me with the most beautiful smile. I guess I needed to cry and I probably will again. I still have questions I want to ask her or something I want to tell her and then I realize she is not here and it hurts. I think many in my family feel that way. I miss her so much. I just have to remember that she is heaven with our Lord and all his glory and then I am alright.
On a more cheerful note. I finished my 20 cards for the ZNE Calling All ATC Swappers Valentine Swap and they are ready to go out in the mail.
I did 4 collages for my great nieces for their birthdays next month along with matching note cards and I also entered an altered envelope I did last Valentines day for an Etsy Cottage Style Challenge.
I plan to give my blog a face lift this week and work on more Comfort Dolls. This raining season can really make you blue if you don't keep busy. I am so grateful for all the warm friendships I have discovered through my blog and Thank God for each one of you.